Psalm 20:6

Psalm 20:6

Now know I that the LORD saveth his anointed; he will hear him from his holy heaven with the saving strength of his right hand.

Yes, I know that God delivers and rescues his little ones from trouble, but NOW I really
KNOW. The following excerpts from my prayer diary remind me of how God has HEARD from His holy heaven and reached down with His right hand just for me. He has "touched me"
with His strongest hand, His right hand. The deliverance has been a slow and painful process-one in which I felt the answer would NEVER come, but He "picked me up" and lifted me up to His "secret place" (Ps. 91:1), all the while thrusting out the ENEMY and saying, "DESTROY"! (Deut. 33:27) Hallelujah!
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July 17, 1998

Psalm 57:4

My soul is among lions: and I lie even among them that are set on fire, even the sons of men, whose teeth are spears and arrows, and their tongue a sharp sword.

Lord, my soul is among lions...The devil is after me... His teeth are like spears and arrows. He is shooting his darts at me, and his tongue is like a sharp sword. He whispers his lies into my ears - lies that I shall not get better and that I shall have this affliction (heavy and persistent bleeding since my miscarriage on June 16) for the rest of my short life. It's all lies, isn't it,
Lord? Yes, I do feel that I'm in the midst of FIRE. Be thou pleased to DELIVER me for thy glory!
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Aug. 19, 1998

Psalm 88:3

For my soul is full of troubles: and my life draweth nigh unto the grave.

Lord, I'm here at the doctor's office again. As I lay here on the doctor's recliner on my 20th wedding anniversary, I feel this verse very heavily, "For my soul is full of troubles: and my life draweth nigh unto the grave." Shall they have to do a D &C even yet? Will my uterus be ruptured? Will they have to do a hysterectomy? Will I die? Lord, You know the concerns I have about anesthesia and antibiotics. My body is so chemically sensitive. What if they give
me something that KILLS me? O Lord, my life seems to draw nigh unto the grave, but I will trust in You!
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A few days later

Psalm 88:4-6

I am counted with them that go down into the pit: I am as a man that hath no strength: Free among the dead, like the slain that lie in the grave, whom thou rememberest no more: and they are cut off from thy hand. Thou has laid me in the lowest pit, in darkness, in the deeps.

What is happening to my body, Lord? What is happening? The doctor switched my medication, but the medicine is KILLING ME! Dizziness, vaginal burning, burning all within my body, extreme nervousness and anxiety, heart palpitations, "brain fog", extreme hunger and thirst! Lord, I CAN'T SLEEP!..Thou hast "laid me in DARKNESS", and I have "NO STRENGTH". And my Fibromyalgia is acting up because I can't sleep. Will I die? How can I ever survive without SLEEP?

Lord, hold me! Hold me! Calm me down, and speak Your Word to my heart! You have said to me, "Fear thou not: for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I AM THY GOD: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my
righteousness." (Is. 41:10)...

O Lord, now I KNOW! The medicine must have multiplied the systemic yeast in my body! I've read before that I should never take that medicine, and how could I have forgotten, Lord? You totally BLANKED it from my mind. Surely Your hand is upon me in LOVING CHASTISEMENT! You are SOVEREIGN, Lord! Surely You wanted me to go through this horrible experience to strengthen my faith and make me less afraid. Lord, please forgive me for my fear. In Jesus' name. Amen.
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I had a really rough couple years after all that! The doctor finally gave up on me...Another one prescribed progesterone which I accidentally overdosed on. Finally another doctor prescribed
estradiol which I am still on. The bleeding at least for the present has calmed down, and I praise my Jehovah-Rapha! I praise Him also for delivering me from my moldy trailer!

Now know I that the LORD saveth his anointed; he will hear him from his holy heaven with the saving strength of his right hand!