This old meditation that I basically wrote years ago in 2000 (but that I'm editing this morning) has been encouraging to me this morning...reminding me of God's grace and help in times past...in other "tight places". :)
1 I WAITED patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.
Lord, I knew several weeks ago that You wanted me to write a "meditation" on this verse, but at the time I didn't realize that the words "waited patiently" were going to be the ones you wanted to emphasize. :) You know this "cancer risk" in talking estradiol without the progesterone has been a concern of mine ever since the hormone doctor "dropped" me. It was hard for me, too, to understand why You seemed to "block" my attempts at finding another doctor who would work with me. Remember my meditation/prayer of August?
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Psalm 32:6-7 6 For this shall every one that is godly pray unto thee in a time when thou mayest be found; surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh unto him.
Lord, I shall pray unto Thee at this TIME...a time of "new trouble". Surely You will appear AGAIN on my behalf! Surely in this new "flood of great waters" You will provide an ANSWER and lift me back up to safety away from churning waters!
*Deliver me out of the mire, and let me NOT SINK. Ps. 69:14a *Let NOT the waterflood OVERFLOW ME. Ps. 69:15a *Neither let the deep SWALLOW ME UP. Ps. 69:15b''
The E.I. doctor said my progesterone level is now a little low and has put me back on it. Lord, do I really need this stuff? It's causing all sorts of "crazy"symptoms.... What am I suppose to do? Will I get cancer if I don't take it? Help!!!
("And thou shalt be secure, because there is HOPE; yea, thou shalt DIG about thee, and thou shalt take thy rest in safety." Job 11:18)
I'm suppose to DIG, Lord? I AM "digging". I've called the pharmacists and several doctors and health counselors, but there are conflicting bits of evidence and differing opinions, and this leaves me confused. Surely, though, YOU will show me what to do. For now at least, You are saying to WAIT and DIG into your WORD! :)
7 Thou art my HIDING PLACE; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with SONGS OF DELIVERANCE. Selah.
Prov. 18:10 says, "The name of the Lord is a strong tower: the righteous runneth into it, and is safe," but I don't need to get anxious and run because I'm already here under Your umbrella of protection - still waiting for the arrows to completely subside from the last "enemy attack". Some of the symptoms have calmed down, and I thank-you for that! But here I am, still HIDING WITH YOU. I am already hidden, and all I have to do is to keep WAITING, quiet and still in Your wonderful arms of love while I itch all over! :) Indeed I am in "trouble" again, and the Greek says "a tight place". Yes, Lord, "daily misery" vs. "cancer risk" is a TIGHT PLACE! :)
Surely You shall surround me with SONGS! Surely You are SINGING even now, and surely You want me to join in singing, too! This is my ANTIDOTE! Surely the ANSWER will come, at least partly, through SONG. Your special words come to me again this morning:
"The LORD shall FIGHT for you, and ye shall hold your peace." Ex. 14:14
Thank-you, Lord! You will FIGHT for me, and songs shall bring about my deliverance! By Your grace, I shall begin by singing this one, Ps. 32. I hold onto this promise this morning, Lord! Since I've discontinued the progesterone, may the doctor say I don't need it. Amen!
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So...that was my August prayer, and you finally after much waiting gave me a new doctor who seems to understand hormones better, but there has been more WAITING...lots of it...waiting on an appointment, waiting on results, waiting on the doctor to call me back. And every day You reminded me of this verse:
1 I WAITED PATIENTLY for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.
Ah, finally the day has come! The results are back!
2 He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established m goings.
Amen! Yes, You have done this for me! The results were o.k., and the doctor says I'm still o.k. without the progesterone. Praise the Lord! You have brought me up out of an horrible pit! Hallelujah!
3 And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.
Yes, I praise You, Lord! I want to SHOUT o all the world what you have done for me here! May many see, fear, and trust in You! Amen!
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