Psalm 63

Psalm 63


Spring/Summer 1999

1 O God, thou are my God; early will I seek thee, my soul thirsteth for thee; my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is.

Yes, thou art my God, and I am Your little, broken, bleeding lamb hiding my face in Your bosom this morning. Everyday I say "Jesus, Lover of my soul, let me to thy bosom fly!" You know about my broken heart this morning. I am so sorry I've disgraced Your name by
not suffering in silence. I'm sorry that I've let this sickness be such a burden on everyone. Give me grace to suffer in silence, Lord, and by a mighty miracle take away the need for these supplements which cost so much money. You are my only Hope!

"Jesus, Lover of my soul. Let me to thy bosom fly!" I am thirsty for You! I want You! I want YOU! I want YOU! And I want to be like You – patient in tribulation! Lord, what a selfish person I've been! May I want life and health not for my good, but for the good of my dear husband and children. May I rejoice in my sufferings, and may I even be willing to die. May they see Christ in me!

2 To see thy power and thy glory, so as I have seen thee in the sanctuary.

Ah yes, to see thy power – thy power in my life, not only in the sanctuary in my private prayer times with You, but in the midst of my family each day. May I see Your POWER in my life to be QUIET and to rejoice in suffering.

3 Because thy lovingkindness is better than life, my lips shall praise thee.

Yes, to know You is BETTER than living physically, and some days when it looks like I may be getting worse…Oh Lord, if I die, yet I have found and EXPERIENCED YOU! Ah…this is LIFE! O Lord, give me grace to praise Thee everyday I spite of my aches and pains and strange and
uncomfortable symptoms…

4 Thus will I bless thee while I live: I will lift up my hands in thy name.

Lord, I feel pretty rotten today. The day is rainy, and the MOLD everywhere seems ready to grab me and swallow me up. I must be extremely mold sensitive, but I'm still alive! I'm still alive! Thank You, Lord! So I will bless You today while I still live. I will now lift up my hands in praise, and I will lift up my hands to You as a little toddler lifts up her hands for her daddy to pick her up. Yes…I now lift up my hands, and You are taking me into Your bosom. Hallelujah!

5 My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips.

Lord, again today my body is about to "crash". I've had a two week long cough and a night without enough sleep – and You know my body, Lord, and how it ACHES when it is sleep deprived, but today I suffer and REJOICE! My soul is SATISFIED, full and overflowing with You! My inner being is rich and happy – as with marrow and fatness – rejoicing with ABUNDANCE because You have worked a little miracle today in the heart of one that I love! My mouth praises thee with joyful lips!

6 When I remember thee upon my bed, and meditate on thee in the night watches.

Yesterday my body was weak and tired, but I thank You, Lord, that I made it through the day. Thank You, thank You, thank You that although I woke several times last night, still I woke up refreshed this morning! Sleep makes all the difference in the world! Because of this environmental illness, yesterday I felt that our future plans were IMPOSSIBLE. But..WHEN I meditated on You, You enabled me to find rest and peace – knowing that if our plans are YOUR PLANS - SOMEHOW everything will work out BECAUSE…

7 Because thou hast been my help, therefore in the shadow of thy wings will I rejoice.

Yes, You've always helped me before! Some way or another, surely You will help me again! Thank You, Lord! I will be JOYFUL and shout and sing aloud under Your wings in Your shadow. I'm like a little helpless chick, and You are my PROTECTOR. "That thy BELOVED – (ME) –may be delivered; save with thy right hand, and hear me. " (Ps. 60:5)
In Jesus' name. Amen.

8 My soul followeth hard after thee: thy right hand upholdeth me.

Jesus, Lover of my soul, my soul follows hard after Thee. I CLING to Thee today. Oh, Lord, do not go away! Speak to my heart! Speak to my heart! Sickness often numbs my spiritual senses, and my heart grieves when You seem to "slip away". Thank You that Thy right hand
UPHOLDS me – physically and spiritually!

9 But those that seek my soul, to destroy it, shall go into the lower parts of the earth.

"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." (Eph.
6:12)

The devil and his angels are trying to destroy me, but they have no power. The devil is trying to rush over me with a tempest. I FEEL it in my body – even now…and yesterday VERY MUCH, but..

10 They shall fall by the sword: they shall be a portion for foxes.

Thank You, Lord, for this verse –

"The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the EVERLASTING ARMS: and he shall thrust out the enemy from before thee; and shall say, DESTROY THEM." (Deut. 33:27)

11a But the king shall REJOICE in GOD;

Yes, and I shall rejoice in You, too!

"I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath clothed me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her
jewels." (Is. 61:10)

11b&c everyone that swareth by him shall glory: but the mouth of them that speak lies shall be stopped.

Lord, You are a God of truth. You always speak TRUTH and bring HOPE! The devil lies, and he shall be STOPPED! I give myself to YOU, and I SHALL glory! Someday I SHALL be well! Someday I SHALL live in a place with You where I no longer "react" to my environment!
Hallelujah! Amen!