Psalm 126

August 1999

Psalm 126

1 When the LORD turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream.

Lord, am I really just allergic to carbohydrates or does CANDIDA have me in a prison again, even though the tests show "no candida"? This morning I once again experience this crazy "brain fog" and the heart palpitations and tacharcardia, and I am reminded of the first horrible "season" of these symptoms that I experienced for weeks and weeks about four or five years ago along with sleepless nights and horrible thirst. "Miraculously" then, it seems, YOU put it into my mind to decrease my carbohydrates, and I don't remember now how I
arrived at the "thought"..but YOU turned away my CAPTIVITY! It was like a dream!

2 Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then said they among the heathen, the LORD hath done great things for them.

Yes…yes! What a blessing it was to be relieved of those horrible symptoms just by reducing the amount of rice, buckwheat, quinoa, and millet I was rotating and eating for breakfast. Oh, happy, happy, happy I was…thankful that You had given me an "answer" on what to do! Indeed You had done great things for me, and I wanted everyone to know!

3 The LORD hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad.

Yes, yes! It is true! You HAVE done great things for me! From time to time these same symptoms have returned, and You have given me other keys to "unlock the door". The high carbohydrates have slowly dwindled away from my diet…but NOW what can I do? Sometimes the symptoms return just because I'm trying to add the carbohydrates back, and I've usually been able to trace "loss of foods" to "exposures" of some sort or to medicines.

4 Turn again our captivity, O LORD, as the streams in the south.

Lord, I'm in CAPTIVITY again this morning! May I not PANIC! This IS getting very serious! I can't afford to "lose" any more foods, but You are sovereign, and You know what You are doing. You have the "key" to unlock this prison door, too…just like you unlocked the other ones. You set me FREE before. Please "turn again" my CAPTIVITY!

Did the little bit of oatmeal cause this? Or did stopping the acidophilus give me a setback? Or have I had another exposure? I did step out my door the other night, and this horrible smell hit my nose, like DDT or something. O Lord, please NO! Please get me away from these train tracks and factories! Please take me to CLEAN AIR!

5 They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.

Hallelujah! Thank-You, Lord! I shall cry tears today, but they shall someday be wiped away, and LAUGHTER shall return!

6 He that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him.

Lord, let my tears wash me on the outside, and let Your tears "wash me on the inside"! Somehow provide a way so that I can CLEAR! If I weep and "go forth", bearing the "precious seed" of Your Word...surely You have a promise for me here. My mouth shall once again someday be filled with laughter and my tongue with singing! Hallelujah!