Phil. 1:21-23 on Death



Jan. 1999

During this time in my life I was thinking a lot about death because I felt like I was dying, even though I guess I wasn't. :) I just loved Piper's thoughts which I will share here:

Phil. 1:21-23



It Is Great Gain to Die Five Reasons Why

by Dr. John Piper (Emphasized by me)

1. At the moment of death, spirits will be made PERFECT. There will be NO MORE SIN in us. We will be done with the inner war and the heartrending disappointments of offending the Lord who loved us and gave himself for us...

2. At the moment of death, we will be relieved of the PAIN of this world...

3. At the moment of death, we will be given profound REST in our soul. There will be a serenity beneath the eye and care of God that surpasses anything we have known here on the softest summer evening beside the most peaceful lake at our most happy moments...

4. At the moment of death, we will experience a deep "AT-HOMENESS". The whole human race is HOMESICK FOR GOD WITHOUT KNOWING IT. When we go home to Christ there will be a contentment beyond any sense of security and peace we have ever known. "We are of good courage, I say, and prefer rather to be absent from the body and to be at home
with the Lord." (2 Corinthians 5:8)

5. At the moment of death, we will be WITH CHRIST. Christ is a more wonderful person than anyone on earth. He is wiser, stronger, and kinder than anyone you enjoy spending time with...Therefore Paul said, "BUT I AM HARD-PRESSED FROM BOTH DIRECTIONS. HAVING THE DESIRE TO DEPART AND BE WITH CHRIST, FOR THAT IS VERY MUCH BETTER." (Phil. 1:21-23)

With these five reasons for counting death gain, we only scratch the surface of wonder. There is more-so much more!

-(From Piper's book-Savoring the Supremacy of God In All Of Life-A Godward Life) Used with permissison. Listen to some of Piper's audio sermons on-line at www.desiringGod.org

Psalm 97:11


Feb. 1999

In the midst of sickness and wondering whether or not I would ever have a day of feeling half-way well again, my dear husband began talking about "missions" again. I didn't see how in the world I could do it, but God moved my heart with the desire to go to Mexico, and I
began praying for the Tarahumara Indians. Before the year was up we did take a trip to Mexico and thought we might stay...but my husband made the decision to return. It was a very hard trip for me with my illness, but I feel like the Lord worked some "mini-miracles" for me in that I didn't get worse by going , and I think He also used the trip to show my family just how sick I really was with MCS.

Psalm 97:11

LIGHT IS SOWN FOR THE RIGHTEOUS, AND GLADNESS FOR THE UPRIGHT IN HEART.

Lord, yesterday You sprinkled my heart with HOPE again by sending this verse my way! Can I claim its promise? How can I claim to be righteous and upright in heart? Only by Your shed blood and Your imputed righteousness to me! The seed of LIGHT has been planted, and
by Your grace, LIGHT is growing in me. Like the morning sun that is getting brighter and brighter, ILLUMINATION and understanding are coming my way little by little, and true happiness is the result. This is true, and I rejoice in it today! Thank-You, Lord, for this
special heaven-sent verse which has brought sunshine to my heart again in the midst of days of sadness. The promise to me is GLADNESS...joyfulness and rejoicing...true PLEASURE IN THEE and in Your work. This is Your promise to me. It shall come in FULLNESS
someday, and it shall last forever! Hallelujah!

Yesterday I took this promise of GLADNESS, and You burst forth in my heart HOPE again....HOPE for the mission field...and DESIRE! Lord, is there REALLY a calling on our lives for such a mission? Humanly speaking this seems so utterly impossible, but You have given me a DREAM...a HOPE...a PRAYER for the Tarahumara Indians. Even if nothing comes of it, still it is the fulfillment of Your promise to me in this verse...for GLADNESS has come my way! And I pray that my burden for the Tarahumara will only grow stronger and stronger! I especially pray for that precious Tarahumara mother SOMEWHERE who, like me, is struggling with sickness in her body because of the poisoned waters. Open her heart for truth, and may the gospel come to her in power. And if You will, send me!

Psalm 96:1


Heavy sickness can wear us down, can't it? I didn't realize how it was really affecting me till everyone said, "You stay in your room so much!You seem so depressed!" etc. I didn't feel that depressed really. I was having wonderful times with the Lord, but perhaps I really did need to meditate on some happier Psalms. So this is the Psalm the Lord led me to!

Feb. 1999

Psalm 96

1 O SING UNTO THE LORD A NEW SONG; SING UNTO THE LORD, ALL THE EARTH.

Sing, Sherry, sing! Sing a NEW song unto the Lord! All praise be to HIM-for old, worldly songs are now a grief to thine heart!

Sing, Sherry, sing! This is God's Word to thee today! "A merry heart doeth good like a medicine.." (Prov. 17:22) Sing to the LORD! Let your Psalms turn into personal prayers and praises sung with sweetness to the lover of thy soul! Don't sing just to be singing! Don't sing just "words", but "sing ye praises with UNDERSTANDING" (Ps. 47:7b)! May the words you sing be the deep MEDITATIONS of your heart, and as you sing, take each verse and apply it directly to your personal situation today.

Sing, Sherry, sing! Sing a NEW song! The same lovely old words in the Psalms have been sung a "hundred" times, yet by His grace, THIS time God shall open them up in a NEW WAY, and they shall be a NEW song for thee TODAY!

Sing, Sherry, sing! Then humbly bow before the Lord, for thou art blessed. To be able to sing a NEW SONG is a great GIFT from God. Old Testament words packed with New Testament meaning and understanding...And understanding now comes because God hath given
thee a NEW HEART. Bow before Him and give Him praise!

"And they sung AS IT WERE a NEW SONG before the throne..and no man could learn that song BUT the hundred and forty and four thousand, which were REDEEMED from the earth." (Rev. 14:3) "...The natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned." (I Cor. 2:14)

"And they sing the SONG OF MOSES the servant of God, and the SONG OF THE LAMB."(Rev. 15:3)...Are these two songs really one in the same?...Old Testament words packed with New Testament meaning and understanding?...

COMPARE Old Testament and New Testament verses! Aren't these verses basically saying the same thing?

Old Testament

"I will sing unto the LORD, for he hath TRIUMPHED GLORIOUSLY, the horse and his rider hath he thrown into the sea...", sang Moses. (Ex. 15)

New Testament

JESUS through death...(destroyed) him that had the power of death, that is, the devil: and DELIVERED them who through fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage." (Heb. 2: 14b-15)




Old Testament

"Thou in the MERCY hast led forth the people which thou hast REDEEMED," sang Moses. (Ex. 15)

New Testament

But God, who is rich in MERCY...hath QUICKENED us together with CHRIST...(Eph. 2:4-5) "And they sung a NEW SONG, saying, Thou (Christ) art worthy to take the book, and to open the seals thereof: for thou wast slain and hast REDEEMED us to God by thy blood..."(Rev. 5:9)




Old Testament

"Thou hast GUIDED them in thy strength unto thy HOLY HABITATION," sang Moses (Ex. 15)

New Testament

"And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in HEAVENLY PLACES in Christ Jesus." (Eph. 2:6) "Howbeit when he the Spirit of Truth, is come, he will GUIDE you into all truth..." (Jn. 16:13)




Old Testament

"Thou shalt bring them in, and plant them in the MOUNTAIN of thine INHERITANCE...", sang Moses. (Ex. 15)

New Testament

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of JESUS CHRIST from the dead to an INHERITANCE incorruptible, and undefiled, and that fadeth not away, reserved in HEAVEN for you..." (1 Peter 1:3-4)


Old Testament words packed with New Testament meaning and understanding...

Psalm 96:2-3


Continuing in Psalm 96 -


2 SING UNTO THE LORD, BLESS HIS NAME; SHEW FORTH HIS SALVATION FROM DAY TO DAY.

"Sing unto the LORD! Sing unto the LORD! Sing unto the LORD!" God wants thee to get the MESSAGE, Sherry, for THRICE it is stated! And Spurgeon says, "Thrice is the name of the Lord repeated, and not without meaning. Is it not unto the Three-One Lord that the enlightened nations will sing?"

Bless His name, Sherry! This word "bless" means "to kneel". Kneel before Him today and show Him reverence! Kneel before Him and ADORE Him! Kneel before Him and BLESS HIS NAME! Remember His NAME...His attributes...His character...and lavish upon Him your words of deep thanksgiving and LOVE!


SHEW forth His salvation!

"SHEW" means "..to be fresh, i.e. full (fosy, fig. cheerful); to announce (glad news): messenger, preach, publish, shew forth, (bear, bring, carry, preach, good, tell...) tidings."

Sherry, shine forth with a smile on your face and a song on your lips...like the bright rays of the sun! May your outward actions reflect the deep work that God has done and is still doing within your heart daily! Shine forth and show forth...day after day...the REALITY of God's salvation in your life and the continuing deliverance from sin as you bear "fruit" for His glory - LOVE, JOY, PEACE, LONGSUFFERING, GOODNESS, FAITH, MEEKNESS, TEMPERANCE. (Gal. 5:22-23) In the midst of all your trials, "...GLORIFY God...in your SPIRIT. (I COR. 6:20) Faith instead of fear...joy instead of complaining...love and service to others instead of preoccupation with self...! LOVE! Show forth His salvation from day to day, especially within your home, by LOVE!

"According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be HOLY and without BLAME before him in LOVE:" Dr. John Piper says, "The point of the little phrase "in love" in Eph. 1:4 is this: Your DESTINY before you were ever created...your
destiny was that you would become a child of God and take on a FAMILY LIKENESS, and the essence of the family likeness is HOLINESS and BLAMELESSNESS. And the heart of holiness and blamelessness is LOVE to one another and to God!"

3 DECLARE HIS GLORY AMONG THE HEATHEN, HIS WONDERS AMONG ALL PEOPLE.

CELEBRATE God's glory by speaking and writing! Tell of His mighty works in the days of the Exodus. Recount His miracles in Galilee. Be a first-hand witness and give TESTIMONY of what He has done for you, Sherry! Celebrate God's glory in your home among your precious
children; celebrate God's glory among the peoples of the world.

Here is a message for you, Sherry. Pay close attention and beseech the Lord to show you HOW you can begin to be a MISSIONARY to those who prefer God's glorious gifts instead of God Himself. And pray especially that God would show you HOW to share the good news also
with those of other tongues.

Psalm 96:4



Continuing in Psalm 96-

Most thoughts by Dr. John Piper- www.desiringGod.org

4a FOR THE LORD IS GREAT, AND GREATLY TO BE PRAISED:

The LORD IS great, and you need to praise Him not a little - but GREATLY! This is the real REASON were created, Sherry!

4b HE IS TO BE FEARED ABOVE ALL GODS.

And why must He be FEARED? Because we have all failed to glorify God. Piper says,

1. "In stead of glorifying God by loving Him, we have neglected, disdained Him, loved other things more than Him, and gotten a lot more "kicks" out of the world than out of Christ.

2. Instead of glorifying God by trusting Him and finding our security and our hope and our welfare in Him, we have sought security and hope with money and technology and our own initiatives and weapons - but not in God.

3. Instead of Glorifying God with gratitude for life and breath and everything, we have treated life as a 'right', and we have treated happiness as something we deserve instead of an absolutely free and gracious gift of God which He did not have to give us and for which
we ought to thank him every moment of our lives.

4. Instead of glorifying Him by obeying Him and seeking His counsel on our sex lives, our politics, our finances, our relationships, our attitudes, we haven't consulted Him 90% of the time in the choices we've made. We have written Him off, back-balled Him, ignored Him,
brought contempt upon Him through our indifference!

He has offered Himself to us for the enjoyment of the glory of His grace and the glory of His beauty and the glory of His generosity and the glory of His wisdom and the glory of His strength...all of His glory! We have looked Him over, sniffed at Him a little bit, and
turned to:

MONEY
SEX
POWER
FAMILY
RELATIONSHIPS
HOBBIES

He simply doesn't get 1/2% of most people's attention and affection. That's a slap in the face. That's a "spit" in the face of God. And that's no exaggeration! We have exchanged His glory for this world!

God is righteous, and His righteousness is His commitment to uphold the worth of this glory. Therefore since we have desecrated the glory of God...every day His righteousness commits Him to oppose us. A just condemnation hangs over the head of every human being. God
will sentence us all to hell in the end if we do not find a way of escape because He's holy and righteous, and He's committed to upholding the worth of His glory.

A crime is blameworthy, wicked, and evil in direct proportion to the worth of the one assaulted. You can smack as many mosquitoes as you want and not an eye brow will be raised..Why? Because they're not worth anything. You try to do that to dogs, and you'll get into trouble. Horses? More trouble! People - you will die or sit in jail the rest of your life...

God is the infinite worth of the universe. God is the TREASURE, and therefore the blameworthiness, the evil, the wickedness of any act that degrades, heaps scorn upon or contempt upon God, is immeasurably horrible and heinous and worthy of eternal and infinite condemnation.

Now this simply will not make sense in a world where God is a millimeter tall..." BUT the LORD JEHOVAH is NOT a millimeter tall!

"(He) made us - hold us in being by the Word of His power - knows the atom and all of its pieces - has named every one of the billions of galaxies and calls them by name. He is God, infinite in glory, infinite in worth, infinite in majesty and purity and holiness. And we are no bigger than a little, tiny, minuscule ant on this earth which is among all the billions of the galaxies. And we scorn Him with our disbelief; we scorn Him with our lack of faith; we scorn Him with our two second devotions; we scorn Him with our fear of witness; we scorn Him every day by our attitudes of irritability and unkindness and lack of love. We heap scorn upon God every day even after we are saved.

The great danger that the human race faces today is not nuclear war; it's not AIDS; it's not environmental catastrophes; it's not crime; its' not racial strife. The greatest danger that we are exposed to is the WRATH OF GOD. Everything else pales in comparison to an omnipotent God opposing us with His wrath. That's the greatest danger that humans face!"

BUT...is there hope? Is there an answer? Yes...read on...

Psalm 96:5-6


5 FOR ALL THE GODS OF THE NATIONS ARE IDOLS; BUT THE LORD MADE THE HEAVENS.

IDOLS-The definition from Strong's includes "good for NOTHING...vanity, no value, thing of naught."Idols are "NO THINGS- NOTHINGS"! Anything that TAKES THE PLACE OF GOD is vanity, and any sin that has a "grip" on our lives is an IDOL. In light of eternity, it is NOTHING - of no value!

"Only one short life;
'Twill soon be past.
Only what's done for Christ
Will last!"

Once again, stop and meditate on this, Sherry!

The imaginary gods of the nations are "nothings" because they aren't real. They aren't alive. "Behold, they are all vanity; their works are nothing: their molten images are wind and confusion." (Is. 41:29) Emptiness (like wind), instead of SATISFACTION from God, reigns in
the hearts of those who worship "NOTHINGS". These idols are only figments of men's imagination, and the deceived worshippers are really bowing to Satan, the god of this world.

We have all EXCHANGED the GLORY of GOD for VANITIES-THINGS WE LOVE MORE THAN GOD. God's Word to us is "...turn from these vanities unto the living God, which made heaven and earth, and the sea, and all things that are therein." (Acts 14:15) "ALL things" includes you, Sherry, and the God who made you has a CLAIM upon your life. The REASON you were made was to "GLORIFY GOD BY ENJOYING HIM FOREVER"! (Quote by Piper) Don't BOTCH UP your life and the REASON for your existence!

6 HONOR AND MAJESTY ARE BEFORE HIM; STRENGTH AND BEAUTY ARE IN HIS
SANCTUARY.

Jehovah is thy royal King, thy Adonai, thy Master, full of truth and excellency...His honor and majesty are before Him. As you hide with Him in the quiet, hallowed spot of His sanctuary, you shall be "set apart and consecrated" in HIS strength and beauty. HIS SECURITY shall
be yours, and HIS BEAUTY shall be yours. You shall reflect His glory, and HE SHALL BE GLORIFIED when you are completely SATISFIED in Him! "He gets the glory! You get the joy!" (Quote by Piper) THIS is the REASON for your existence! So..."ENTER into the ROCK (into Christ), and hide thee in the dust (in humility), for FEAR of the LORD, and for the GLORY of his MAJESTY." (Is. 2:10)

(I have a "meditation on Is. 2:10 if you are interested. Just e-mail me for it.:))

Psalm 96:7-8




7&8 GIVE UNTO THE LORD, O YE KINDREDS OF THE PEOPLE, GIVE UNTO THE LORD GLORY AND STRENGTH. GIVE UNTO THE LORD THE GLORY DUE UNTO HIS NAME: BRING AN OFFERING, AND COME INTO HIS COURTS.

Yes, don't you want to SHOUT in from the moutaintops, Sherry? Shout..."GIVE UNTO THE LORD, O ye kindreds of the people, give unto the Lord GLORY and STRENGTH! Give unto the LORD the glory due unto his name: bring an offering, and come into his courts." Three times it is said, 'GIVE UNTO THE LORD.' God created you for His glory, so bring YOURSELVES as an offering to him. Give yourselves to the Lord who made you! Fulfill the purpose for which you were made! God IS full of glory and strength already, but He wants you to MAGNIFY His glory and strength by putting your full TRUST in Him!"

Share these illustrations by Piper which will help others to see what it means to GLORIFY God's beauty and strength...

1) "If there's a beautiful flower arrangement...how do you glorify that arrangement? Do you glorify it by saying, "I (need) to go get some more daises and work on it a little more. It needs a little more greenery and a little more orange..!" That's an insult to the flower arrangement. The way you glorify a flower arrangement is by ENJOYING it, by DELIGHTING in it, and by SPEAKING EXCITEDLY of it to the people who are near you!...If you love the flower arrangement, you will delight yourself in it, and that glorifies it! (modified illustration)

2)Suppose someone makes an excellent meal for you, and it is not only tasty, it is also beautiful on the table, and its' nutritious. It's the kind of thing you ought to eat as well as like to east. How do you glorify the cook? Do you glorify the cook by putting on an apron and saying..."We got to work on this!.." You go out in the kitchen and add some more spices,and you say "Oh, we don't have any chips!"...No, the way to glorify the cook is to eat a lot of the
food, and when you are done to say things like "m-mm" (and "ah!"..(We call that WORSHIP...!")

3) Suppose it's your duty to glorify the strength of a new alloy, a metal that has been created by somebody, and it is in a bridge that holds a road across a chasm...How do you glorify the strength of the alloy? Do you glorify the strength of that alloy by buying some two by fours and working up a sweat propping up the bridge before you go over. No, that's a dishonor to the alloy. The way you glorify that alloy is by gathering all your family...and with not one whiff of anxiety, drive right across the bridge, singing as you go."

Psalm 96:9


9 O WORSHIP THE LORD IN THE BEAUTY OF HOLINESS: FEAR BEFORE HIM, ALL THE EARTH.

The message you must proclaim, Sherry, is the message of HOLINESS. The purity of God cannot pass over sin and sweep it under the rug. Without holiness, "no man shall see the Lord." (Heb. 12:14) "We all have failed to glorify Him, and we are all most UNholy", you must
proclaim. "FEAR before Him, ALL the earth!" you shall say.

"So is there no hope?" the people will cry. And THEN you may share the GOOD NEWS!...

You shall say, "O worship the LORD in the BEAUTY OF HOLINESS..Prostrate thyself before Him in true repentance, and He shall throw upon thee the beautiful, pure mantle of Christ's
righteousness. HIS PERFECTION shall be thine own by FAITH, and He shall be thy TREASURE, thy PEARL of GREAT PRICE! Then thou shalt be able to worship the LORD in the beauty of HIS HOLINESS!

You shall say, "The GOOD NEWS is that although the Father is a great God of wrath, He is also a great God of love who designed a way of deliverance for sinners by sending His own Son, Jesus Christ, to experience His wrath upon the cross and the horrible "spanking" for
their sin and indifference to Him. By FAITH, they shall be forgiven, and by FAITH, they shall be made HOLY.

You may proclaim again as soon as they have taken JESUS as their TREASURE, "O worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness.." "And the Lord make you to increase and abound in love one toward another, and toward all men,...to the end he may STABLISH your HEARTS
unblameable IN HOLINESS before God.."(I Thess. 3: 12-13) "For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be CONFORMED TO THE IMAGE OF HIS SON..." (Rom 8:29) He saved you to MAKE YOU HOLY!" And the very God of peace SANCTIFY you wholly...Faithful is he that calleth you, who also WILL DO IT." (I Thess. 5:23-24) If we are His dear children, He IS in the process of making us HOLY. Oh, praise His name!"

"O worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness: fear before him, all the earth..."

Stop, Sherry, and consider this verse for thyself as well..Spurgeon says, "'Tremble' is the word in the original, and it expresses the profoundest awe, just as the word 'worship' does, which would be more accurately translated by 'bow down.' Even the bodily frame would be moved to trembling and prostration if men were thoroughly conscious of the power and glory of Jehovah...

There is a sacred trembling which is quite consistent with joy, the heart may even quiver with an awful excess of delight. The sight of the King in his beauty caused no alarm to John in Patmos, and yet it made him fall at his feet as dead. Oh, to behold him an worship him
with prostrate awe and sacred fear!"

Psalm 96:10-13


Psalm 96:10-13



10a SAY AMONG THE HEATHEN THAT THE LORD REIGNETH:

Yes, Sherry...say among the heathen that the LORD REIGNETH! Declare to the lost and to those of other tongues that the LORD ascends to the throne. He is the Sovereign God of the universe, and He says, "Remember the former things of old: for I am God, and there is NONE ELSE; I am God, and there is one like me, DECLARING THE END FROM THE BEGINNING, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, MY COUNSEL SHALL STAND, and I will do all my pleasure: calling a ravenous bird from the east, the man that executeth my counsel from a far country: YEA, I HAVE SPOKEN IT, I WILL ALSO BRING
IT TO PASS; I HAVE PURPOSED IT, I WILL ALSO DO IT." (Is. 49:9-11) Declare to the world, Sherry, that the sovereign Lord rules!

10b THE WORLD ALSO SHALL BE ESTABLISHED THAT IT SHALL NOT BE MOVED: HE SHALL JUDGE THE PEOPLE RIGHTEOUSLY.

When the seventh angel sounds,..."The kingdoms of this world (will) become the kingdoms of our Lord, and of his Christ; and he shall reign for ever and ever." (Rev. 11:15) "And there was given him dominion, and glory, and a kingdom, that ALL PEOPLE, NATIONS, and LANGUAGES, should serve him: his dominion is an everlasting dominion, which shall not pass away, and his kingdom that which shall not be destroyed." (Dan. 7:14) His kingdom fails not, and He rules RIGHTLY! All sin shall be judged, and "...whosoever is) not found written in the book of life (will be) cast into the lake of fire." (Rev. 20:15)

11-12a LET THE HEAVENS REJOICE, AND LET THE EARTH BE GLAD; LET THE SEA ROAR, AND THE FULLNESS THEREOF. LET THE FIELD BE JOYFUL, AND ALL THAT IS THEREIN:

Yes, everything that God made is DOING what He had planned for it to DO, and this is showing forth His GLORY, and He is being magnified! Let the heavens and earth CONTINUE to rejoice and glorify him...They SHALL... They SHALL! The heavens and earth SHALL CONTINUE to rejoice and glorify Him. The sun is bringing forth light and warmth for us in
the daytime, and the moon and stars are directing us in the night. The seas roar and show forth God's mighty power! Let the field continue to bring forth food for man and beast! Let every creature within the seas and fields joyfully fulfill the purpose for which they were made! May YOU fulfill the purpose for which YOU were made, Sherry!

12b-13 THEN SHALL ALL THE TREES OF THE WOOD REJOICE BEFORE THE LORD: FOR HE COMETH, HE COMETH TO JUDGE THE EARTH; HE SHALL JUDGE THE WORLD IN RIGHTEOUSNESS, AND THE PEOPLE WITH HIS TRUTH.

But also..."We know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now." (Rom. 8:22)...waiting for the PERFECTION..THEN shall nature REALLY PRAISE!

THEN...when Christ comes...shall the woods really rejoice! The birds within the trees shall sing a more beautiful song than they have ever sung before! THEN shall there be a new heavens and a new earth wherein dwelleth RIGHTEOUSNESS...no more curse...no more decay...NO
MORE SIN! Hallelujah! When the LORD comes, the wicked shall be punished, and sin shall be gone...righteousness and truth shall be forever! And the LORD shall REIGN in the fullest sense!

Proclaim these words to the world, Sherry! Let this psalm be a "missionary hymn" for thee- a hymn of praise- a hymn about the GLORY OF GOD- a hymn that will say to all - "The chief end of man is to GLORIFY GOD BY ENJOYING HIM FOREVER!" and "God is most glorified
in us when we are most SATISFIED in Him." (Quotes by Piper)

Psalm 23:1a



Written Feb. and March 1999

Psalm 23

1a THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD;

"The LORD is my shepherd!" Thank-You, Jesus, that YOU are my shepherd- because out of all the people who love me, YOU are the One who loves me most. YOU are the One who loves me perfectly. YOU are the only One who can take care of me. I am Yours, and You are mine!

"The LORD IS my shepherd!" Yes, You ARE! By Your grace, I'm Your little sheep, and You ARE my shepherd. It's not a MAYBE, but in truth and reality You ARE my shepherd.

"The LORD is MY shepherd!" You are my PERSONAL shepherd. You are the shepherd of many others as well, but when You speak to me, I am all alone with You, and I have Your full attention. I praise You that You can be MY shepherd personally anytime I need You. What a mighty God! You are all things to all of Your sheep at all times! I praise Your wonderful NAME!

"The LORD is my SHEPHERD!"

Shepherd - 7462 in Strong's- "to tend a flock; i.e. pasture it; intrans. to graze (lit. or fig.); gen. to rule by extens. to associate with (as a friend): -x break, companion, keep company with...feed, use as a friend, make friendship with, herdsman, keep (sheep)...pastor...shepherd...

"Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name: thou art mine " (Is. 43:1b), You say to me. You are my shepherd,my FRIEND that I "keep company with". You are my ruler, and You are the One who feeds me both physically and spiritually.

It is said of Thee, "He shall FEED his flock like a shepherd: he shall GATHER the lambs with his arm, and CARRY them IN HIS BOSOM, and shall gently lead those that are with young." (Is. 40:11) Thank- You, for this wonderful PROMISE to me!

You are my shepherd, and I am Your little sheep, by grace. "I am the good shepherd," You say to me. "The good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep." (Jn. 10:11) Thank-You, Lord, for giving Your life for ME! Yes, I am Your little sheep, and I tend to so easily go astray as all little sheep are prone to do. Thank-You, dear Jesus, Shepherd of my soul, for continually finding me and bringing me back to Your bosom again. And as my GOOD SHEPHERD, You will provide for me and keep me from danger. When I am in Your bosom, I am in SAFETY. Thank-You, Jesus!

W.M. Thornson, P.D., in "The Land and the Book" writes,

Some sheep always keep near the shepherd and are his special favorites. Each of them has a name, to which it answers joyfully, and the kind shepherd is ever distributing to such, choice portions which he gathers for that purpose. These are the contented and happy ones. They are in no danger of getting lost or into mischief, nor do wild beasts or thieves come near them. (I long to be a sheep like this, my Lord!) The great body, however, are more worldlings, intent
upon their mere pleasures or selfish interests. They run from bush to bush, searching for variety or delicacies, and only now and then lift their heads to see where the shepherd is...

Psalm 23:1b-2a


As I read and type these words that I wrote in Jan.-Feb. 1999, they are a blessing to me now in my current situation also. If the economic situation and/or more terrorist activity/war cuts off our special food and supplements, I shall have to read what the Lord spoke to me here over and over again....

The "somewhere" I was going here was to Mexico. Even though I was quite sick at the time and the trip was a "nightmare", the Lord held me in His arms of LOVE , gave me several special promises from the Scriptures which I "lived on", and allowed me to safely return to an
even better place than I had before. He also continued to provide the special food and supplements that I was concerned about losing. I just want to share this and praise His Name!




1b I SHALL NOT WANT.

Thank-You, Lord, for this verse! - "But my God shall supply ALL your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus." (Phil. 4:19)

Lord, You have always given me everything I really needed in the past, and You shall do so in the future. You have not promised me a life free from suffering, but until the day of my death, You shall give me all that I really NEED. All I REALLY need is YOU!

My dear husband has found a buyer for our trailer, and he thinks we're going SOMEWHERE - not sure exactly where, but probably to the mission field. I feel a little bit like Abraham and Sarah this morning. At times it seems so utterly impossible since I'm so sick, but I must remember that You are the God who works above and beyond what we are able to ask or think. In Your time and in Your way, You shall supply everything that I need. I fall into Your arms of love this morning - not knowing where I'm going or how I'm going to get there or how I will be able to survive if I don't have special food and supplements, etc. Maybe You shall indeed heal me, and then I shall not need SPECIAL provisions. Or maybe You shall provide these things for me in some miraculous way. Or perhaps You shall take me HOME. May I be content and happy and JOYFUL in whatever You choose.

2a HE MAKETH ME TO LIE DOWN IN GREEN PASTURES:

Yes, Lord, You are MAKING me to LIE DOWN. You are bringing me through a series of events in my life that are leaving me powerless with no strength of my own. I cannot decide what to do. You hold the keys! You hold the future! And You are MAKING me lie down in
Your wonderful arms of love in Your green pastures. All that I am going through is for my good to bring me to a place of total SURRENDER. I must LIE DOWN and let You determine what happens next. I'm sorry that I keep trying to get up and make my own plans...I'd so
much like to have it all planned out and know exactly how You will provide and lead, but I must live by faith. Thank-You for MAKING me to LIE DOWN again!

"IN RETURNING AND REST SHALL (I) BE SAVED; IN QUIETNESS AND IN CONFIDENCE SHALL BE (MY) STRENGTH." (Is. 30:15)

How I long to rest in Thee and quit the STRUGGLE! Please forgive me, Lord. I have been such a selfish person and so unwilling to SUFFER

" (You) say (to me), "My PRESENCE shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest." (Ex. 33:14) Yes, I shall LIE DOWN there, too, in the place where you are taking us...there, too, in Your green pastures- because Your PRESENCE is everywhere I go. Hallelujah!

You make me to lie down in GREEN PASTURES...Green Pastures...luscious green pastures. I shall lie down here in the soft, green grass and look up at the beautiful, blue sky with the fluffy, white clouds...and here I shall find PEACE...PEACE in You...I want to lie here FOREVER!

In these green pastures I shall find food - the perfect food that I need - the SPECIAL food from Thee that my body can tolerate. Thank- You, Lord, for the food of Your Word, the food that I CANNOT do without! Indeed "When by faith (I am) enabled to find rest in the promises, (I am) like a sheep...finding peace, rest and refreshment, serenity and satisfaction in a beautiful green pasture!" (Quote by Spurgeon)

You say to me, "I WILL FEED (THEE) in a good pasture, and upon the HIGH MOUNTAINS of Israel shall their fold be: there shall they LIE in a good fold, and in a fat pasture shall they feed upon the MOUNTAINS of Israel." (Ex. 34:14)

Ah, Lord... Yes, I shall feed in Your HIGH PLACES...there with You...and I shall feed UPON YOU. I cannot eat physical bread, but I can partake of Thee... and thy Word, my spiritual, living bread!

Yes, Lord, You are making me to LIE DOWN in Your green, "vitamin- enriched" pastures of SURRENDER. It is Thee who "graciously enables (me) to perceive the preciousness of (your) truth and to feed upon it." (Quote by Spurgeon)

Thank-You, Lord!

Psalm 23:2b


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Written Jan.-Feb. 1999

Psalm 23

2b HE LEADETH ME BESIDE THE STILL WATERS.

Leadeth - Strong's definition - "to run with a sparkle, i.e. flow; hence to conduct and (by infer.) to protect, sustain: carry, feed, guide, lead, (gently) on."

Still - Strong's definition - "repose or (adv.) peacefully; fig. consolation (spec. matrimony); hence an abode; comfortable, ease, quiet, rest (-ing place), still."


"The MEEK will he guide..." ((Ps. 25:9)

As I surrender to You, by Your grace...as YOUR meekness comes upon me, I find myself rejoicing and feeding upon Your "vitamin-enriched" pastures. I know also that You are "running with a sparkle" before me...protecting me...SUSTAINING me...carrying me...leading
me...guiding me GENTLY on. Here at the edge of Your green pastures of SURRENDER, I also find Your peaceful, still waters - my FOREVER ABODE - "not waters that roar and make a noise enough to frighten a fearful sheep (like ME), but water 'still' and quiet" (Quote by Sir
Richard Baker) - the waters of comfortable QUIET REST - the waters of Your consolation and PEACE...the STILL WATERS - "the influences and graces" of Your precious Holy Spirit. (Quote by Spurgeon)

Hallelujah!

Psalm 23:3a



Psalm 23

3a HE RESTORETH MY SOUL:

Thank-You, Lord, for Your Word to me this morning: When I read this verse, I think of Ps. 51:10-13:

10 Create in me a CLEAN HEART, O God; and renew a RIGHT SPIRIT within me.

11Cast me not away from thy presence, and take not thy holy spirit from me.

12 RESTORE unto me the JOY OF THY SALVATION; and uphold me with thy free spirit.

13 THEN will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.

Renew a RIGHT SPIRIT - a joyful spirit within me. Restore my inner being with HAPPINESS! May I be HAPPY no matter what my husband and children do or don't do. May I be HAPPY no matter what decisions are made...Happy whether I live or die...HAPPY just to be Your child!
Make me truly HAPPY, Lord - no matter what! RESTORE unto me the JOY of THY SALVATION! THEN will I teach transgressors thy ways, and sinners shall be converted unto thee!

Ah, Lord..Piper's words from his book, A GODWARD LIFE, p. 84-84, blessed my soul today:

Lord Jesus, what did you mean that those who drink the water that you give will never thirst again (Jn. 4:14)? I THIRST this morning...Have we not drunk? Is the promise vain?...

As I cried out, the second half of the verse spoke. Jesus spoke, "But the water that I shall give him shall become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life." With it came an answer...

It went like this: When you drink my water, your thirst is not destroyed forever. If it did that, would you feel any need of my water afterward? That is not my goal. I do not want self-
sufficient saints. When you drink my water, it makes a spring in you. A spring satisfies thirst, not by removing the need you have for water, but by being there to give you water whenever you get thirsty. Again and again. Like this morning. So drink, John. Drink.

Now as I sit here writing, I see this precious truth in Psalm 23: "The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want." Nevertheless, we cry out, "O Lord, today I have wants! I know a hundred people who have wants who count you as their Shepherd. What do you mean, 'We shall not want'?"

But now I have learned a lesson, First, cry out, then read on. "He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul." Restores. That means the wants rise in my soul and then Jesus satisfies. They rise again, and he resatisfies. Life is a rhythm of need and nourishment - and sometimes even a rhythm of danger and deliverance. "Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death..." The valley will (again) break forth onto green pastures, and the still waters will flow (again!) The spring is even now welling up within and will forever. For the spring within is not ourselves but God: "He who
believes in Me, as the Scriptures said, From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water. But this He spoke of the Spirit, whom those who believed in Him were to receive." (John 7:38-39). Thirst is quenched by the Spirit of Christ revealing himself and his
promises for us for our soul's satisfaction. But the thirst is not obliterated, lest we lose our impulse to come to him again and again for all that God promises to be for us in Jesus.

Let the one who is thirsty come and keep coming, until our fellowship is so close that there is no distance between.

Psalm 23:3b



Written Feb.-Mar. 1999

Psalm 23



3b HE LEADETH ME IN THE PATHS OF RIGHTEOUSNESS FOR HIS NAME'S SAKE.



Leadeth- Strong's definition - "to drive forth..."

Yes, You are "driving me forth" - bringing me to a place, by Your grace, where I can lie down without fear into Your wonderful arms of love! A reaction to a medicine has made me so sleepy today that nothing else matters - SLEEP, sleep, sleep, SLEEP...sleep in Jesus...If I die and "sleep in Jesus", that's OK. Just please give me rest, Lord. Your promise to me is Ex. 33:14-

"My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee REST." In paths of RIGHTEOUSNESS - this is where I long to be - in paths of RIGHTEOUSNESS where I might have LOVE, JOY, PEACE, LONGSUFFERING, GENTLENESS, GOODNESS, FAITH, MEEKNESS, TEMPERANCE in all the dealings with my dear husband and children. Someday I shall really be in Your arms of love forever! Then I shall have no sin...no fear...no fatigue...no pain or sickness! Come, Lord Jesus, come quickly! Maranatha!

"...So didst thou lead thy people, to make thyself a glorious name!" (Is 63:14) Yes, make thyself a glorious name, Lord! It is for YOUR GLORY and YOUR NAME that You are leading me in paths of righteousness. Hallelujah for the PROMISE that I shall someday be really HOLY! You WILL make it happen - for Your name and glory is at stake!

Psalm 23:4a



Psalm 23

4a YEA, THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL:

Lord, You know that Spurgeon's words on this verse have been a blessing to me over and over again, and so I record them here in order to ponder and remember. (p. 400-401 in Treasury of David) -

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." This unspeakably delightful verse has been sung on many a dying bed, and has helped to make the dark valley bright times out of mind.
Every word in it has a wealth of meaning. "Yea, though I walk", as if the believer did not quicken his pace when he came to die, but still calmly walked with God. To walk indicates the steady advance of a soul which knows its road, knows its end, resolves to follow the path, feels quite safe, and is therefore perfectly calm and composed. The dying saint is not in a
flurry, he does not run as though he were alarmed, nor stand still as though he would go no further, he is not confounded nor ashamed, and therefore keeps to his old pace. Observe that it is not walking in the valley, but through the valley. We go through the dark tunnel of
death and emerge into the light of immortality. We do not die, we do but sleep to wake in glory. Death is not the house but the porch, not the goal but the passage to it. The dying article is called a valley. The storm breaks on the mountain, but the valley is the place
of quietude, and thus full often the last days of the Christian are the most peaceful in his whole career; the mountain is bleak and bare, but the valley is rich with golden sheaves, and many a saint has reaped more joy and knowledge when he came to die than he ever knew while he lived. And, then, it is not "the valley of death," but "the valley of the shadow of death," for death in its substance has been removed, and only the shadow of it remains. Someone has said that when there is a shadow there must be light somewhere, and
so there is. Death stands by the side of the highway in which we have to travel, and the light of heaven shining upon him throws a shadow across our path; let us then rejoice that there is a light beyond. Nobody is afraid of a shadow, for a shadow cannot stop a man's pathway even for a moment. The shadow of a dog cannot bite; the shadow of a sword cannot kill; the shadow of death cannot destroy us. Let us not, therefore, be afraid. "I will fear no evil." He
does not say there shall not be any evil; he had got beyond even that high assurance, and knew that Jesus had put all evil away; but "I will fear no evil;" as if even his fears, those shadows of evil, were gone for ever. The worst evils of life are those which do not exist except in our imagination. If we had not troubles but real troubles, we should not have a tenth part of our present sorrows. We feel a thousand deaths in fearing one, but the psalmist was cured of the disease of fearing. " I will fear no evil," not even the Evil One himself; I will not dread the last enemy, I will look upon him as a conquered foe, an enemy to be destroyed, "For thou art with me." This is the joy of a Christian! "Thou art with me." The little child out at sea in the storm is not frightened like all the other passengers on board the vessel, it is asleep in its mother's bosom; it is enough for it that its mother is with it; and it should be enough for the believer to know that Christ is with him. Thou art with me; I have, in having thee, all that I can crave: I have perfect comfort and absolute security, for thou art with me." (underlining
mine)

Psalm 23:4a Continued


Written Feb. - Mar. 1999

Psalm 23:4a continued ---

Quote by W.M. Thomson - (From Spurgeon's Treasury of David)

Come down to the river; there is something going forward worth seeing. Your shepherd is about to lead his flock across; and as our Lord says of the good shepherd - you observe that he goes before, and the sheep follow. Not all in the same manner, however. Some enter
boldly, and come straight across. These are the loved ones of the flock, who keep hard by the footsteps of the shepherd, whether sauntering through green meadows by the still waters, feeding upon the mountains, or resting at noon beneath the shadow of great rocks.And now others enter, but in doubt and alarm. Far from their guide,they miss the ford, and are carried down the river, some more, some less; and yet one by one, they all struggle over and make good their landing. Notice those little lambs. They refuse to enter, and must be driven into the stream by the shepherd's dog, mentioned by Job in his 'parable'. Poor things! How they leap, and plunge, and bleat in terror! That weak one yonder will be swept quite away, and perish in the sea. But no; the shepherd himself leaps into the stream, lift sit into his bosom, and bears it trembling to the shore. All safely over, how happy they appear! The lambs frisk and gambol about in high spirits, while the older ones gather around their faithful guide, and look up to him in subdued but expressive thankfulness. Now, can you watch such a scene, and not think of that Shepherd who leadeth Joseph like a flock; and of another river, which all his sheep must cross? He, too, goes before, and; as in the case of this flock they who keep near him "fear no evil". They hear his sweet voice, saying, "When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee." (Is. 43:2) With eye fastened on him they scarcely see the stream, or feel its cold and the threatening waves.

Oh, what a comfort to my heart is this scene, for I fear that I am too much like the weak one who was almost swept away. Yet my faith is being increased, and I joy to know that even the weak ones shall make it safely across that river of death - safely across to the arms of the Saviour!

By Thy Grace

Our heart is not turned back, neither have our steps declined from thy way; Thought thou hast sore broken us in the place of dragons, and COVERED US with the SHADOW OF DEATH." (Ps. 44:18-19)

This environmental illness is the "shadow of death", but surely it is only a shadow and not the real thing. Tears come to my eyes when I meditated on this the other day: Millions in third world countries are suffering with NO HOPE, and it all ends in eventual death with
endless suffering FOREVER and EVER! But thanks be to You, dear God, for my suffering shall end in perfect peace and healing with LIFE EVERLASTING! O Lord, have mercy on these poor people. Send forth laborers into Your harvest to tell them the GOOD NEWS of life in Jesus through His shed blood - the GOOD NEWS that suffering will end in peace if they are SATISFIED in Jesus NOW. Send me, O Lord, send me! In Jesus' name, may I go and FEAR NO EVIL! Thank-You, Lord, for victory this morning!

Psalm 23:4b-5



Written Feb.-Mar. 1999

Psalm 23

4b FOR THOU ART WITH ME;

Everything will be okay because THOU art with me! You say to me, "My presence shall GO WITH THEE, and I will give thee REST." (Ex. 33:14) You promise to GO WITH ME...through my suffering...and to the mission field - if that's where you lead me. May I be able, by Your grace, to embrace my suffering and apply this wonderful verse to my life today -


"Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to him in well doing as unto a faithful Creator". (I Peter 4:19)

By Your grace, I can commit my soul to You for THOU ART WITH ME. Hallelujah! Thank-You for these promises today!

5a THOU PREPAREST A TABLE BEFORE ME IN THE PRESENCE OF MINE ENEMIES:

Your WORD is my table! Your WORD is my feast!

"(Your) Word is the place of COMMUNION. (You stand) forth from (Your) Word. What we long for is (You)! Where shall we meet (You)? Where (do you) reveal Yourself? The answer is given in 1 Samuel 3:21: "The LORD revealed Himself to Samuel at Shiloh by the word of the LORD." (You are) met and known, and loved, and enjoyed "by the WORD OF THE LORD."
(Quote by Piper - emphasis mine)

Hallelujah! You PREPARE a feast for me! Each day You are PREPARING for me a "tidbit" of spiritual truth...a promise...a verse to "hang on to". Yesterday You said to me "My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest." What comfort that was for me! And so that I
can go on TODAY, surely You are preparing for me another feast of spiritual truth from Your Holy Word. In the presence of all my enemies, the devil and his demons as well as others, You specially PREPARE for me a feast...a FEAST...food for the day...so that I will have spiritual strength to carry on. Thank-You, Lord! And so what is Your Word to me today?

5b THOU ANOINTEST MY HEAD WITH OIL, MY CUP RUNNETH OVER.

Anointest - Strong's definition - "To be fat, fig. (TO SATISFY)

"Therefore God, thy God, hath anointed thee with the OIL OF GLADNESS..." (Ps. 45:7)

Ah, this is Your special Word...Your feast for me today! You will anoint me with the OIL OF GLADNESS, and how I need it!!! Let it be mine today in the power of Your Holy Spirit!

When Your "feast" is set before me and I eat of it, it is the MEANS that brings about the anointing of Your Spirit which flows down over me. When my cup runs over I am full of Thee, and I am SATISFIED! Hallelujah!

Psalm 23:6


PSALM 23

6a SURELY GOODNESS AND MERCY SHALL FOLLOW ME ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE: AND I WILL DWELL IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD FOREVER.

A Promise For Today

You say to me, "For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great MERCIES will I gather thee. In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have MERCY on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer." (Is. 54:7-8)

Strong's Definitions
Follow - "to run after, pursue"
Dwell - "sit down, remain, settle, to marry, make to keep house"
House - "family"

Yes, surely...SURELY! Lord, Your GOODNESS and MERCY shall RUN AFTER ME and follow me wherever I go forever! I cannot get away from Your wonderful GOODNESS and MERCY! What a happy thought! Because I am in Your family...because I am Your child by grace, I know that MERCY has PURSUED me and overtaken me, and now I shall LIVE IN IT. And as I
live in it, still MORE goodness and mercy shall RUN AFTER ME forever and ever! You have promised me "the daily arrival of grace - FUTURE GRACE" (Coined termed by Dr. Piper) Yes, by Your grace, we are "married". Yes, by Your grace, I have "settled down" with You in
Your house. Yes...yes, I shall REMAIN here because of Your wonderful MERCY and GRACE. Thank-You, Lord Jesus! Forever I am Yours!

"If (You) had told me some time ago that (You were) about to make me as happy as I could be in this world, and then had told me that (You) should begin by (taking away my health), and removing me from all my usual sources of enjoyment, I should have thought it a very strang
mode of accomplishing (You) purpose. And yet, how is (Your) wisdom manifest even in this. For if you should see a man shut up in a close room, idolizing a set of lamps and rejoicing in their light, and you wished to make him truly happy, you would begin by blowing out all his lamp; and then THROW OPEN THE SHUTTERS TO LET IN THE LIGHT OF HEAVEN. Personal Quote by Samuel Rutherford from "A Godward Life", by Dr. John Piper, pgs.288-289 (personalized and emphasized by me)

Lord, although You've allowed periods of depression in my life, this is true. You have given me a deep happiness in knowing You in meditation and writing. Thank-You, Lord, for"THROWING OPEN THE SHUTTERS TO LET IN THE LIGHT OF HEAVEN." Amen.

Lord, You have "...turned the curse into a BLESSING unto (me)..." (Deut. 23:9) Praise be to Your name!

Psalm 109:21-27



Written Mar. 17, 1999

(The fact that I am better is testimony of God's answered prayer!)

(Identifying with Christ in this Psalm )-

Psalm 109:21-27

21 BUT DO THOU FOR ME, O GOD THE LORD, FOR THY NAME'S SAKE: BECAUSE THY MERCY IS GOOD, DELIVER THOU ME.

Yes, Lord, for thy NAME...for thy GLORY, have MERCY on me and help me.

22 FOR I AM POOR AND NEEDY, AND MY HEART IS WOUNDED WITHIN ME.

Yes, Lord, my heart is wounded. I have suffered at the hand of all these physicians! And now this new doctor has me crying. Is she right? Did the other doctors and pharmacist hurt me? Who, Lord, do I believe? Who is right? Can I trust this new doctor? I was near tears while I was talking to her, and when I left, I was in tears! "Money-hungry" doctors with no true compassion....Lord, my heart cries. Have mercy upon this doctor! May I forgive her. But is
she right? Will I be hurt more if I do what she says? All the doctors have hurt me! O Lord, please..YOU be my physician! Give me wisdom, Lord. My honey says to do what she says, so give me grace to not be afraid and to embrace suffering if I must. In Jesus' name. Amen.

23 I AM GONE LIKE THE SHADOW WHEN IT DECLINETH: I AM TOSSED UP AND DOWN AS THE LOCUST

I guess that's a good way to describe how I feel, Lord - declining like a shadow and being tossed back and forth between doctors that make BIG MISTAKES. Give me grace to forgive.

24 MY KNEES ARE WEAK THROUGH FASTING; AND MY FLESH FAILETH OF FATNESS.

Well, the second part is true...I had lost weight, and I AM weak many times, but not through fasting....I take that back. This crazy low calorie diet of meat and low carbohydrate vegetables is a sort of "fast". That's all I can eat without reacting in a bad way.

25 I BECAME ALSO A REPROACH UNTO THEM: WHEN THEY LOOKED UPON ME THEY
SHAKED THEIR HEADS.

Yes, most doctors have shaken their heads. They don't know what to do with me, and my family and friends often don't know what to do with me either.

26 HELP ME, O LORD MY GOD: O SAVE ME ACCORDING TO THY MERCY:

You are my only HOPE, Lord! Have MERCY upon me. And why? The next verse answers the question.

27 THAT THEY MAY KNOW THAT THIS IS THY HAND, THAT THOU, LORD, HAST DONE IT.

Amen! If I get better, it will certainly be YOUR HAND of MERCY. You be my doctor! In Jesus' name. Amen!

Psalm 22:1


Psalm 22
A few verses each time from Psalm 22 - Meditation by Spurgeon from Treasury of David - my comments in parenthesis - Spring 1999 - emphasis mine.

"This is beyond all others The Psalm of the Cross. It may have been actually repeated word by word by our Lord when hanging on the tree; it would be too bold to say that it was so but even a casual reader may see that it might have been. It begins with, "My God my God, why
hast thou forsaken me?" and ends, according to some, in the original with "It is finished." ...It is the photograph of our Lord's saddest hours, the record of his dying words, the lachrymatory of his last tears, the memorial of his expiring joys. David and his afflictions
may be here in a very modified sense, but, as the star is concealed by the light of the sun, he who sees Jesus will probably neither see nor care to see David. Before us we have a description both of the darkness and of the glory of the cross, the sufferings of Christ and
the glory which shall follow...We should read reverently, putting off our shoes from off our feet, as Moses did at the burning bush, for if there be holy ground anywhere in Scripture it is in this psalm."

(Jesus understands my LONELINESS and my SUFFERINGS! May I stop and meditate today on intense torments and the price He paid so that I might gain eternal salvation...)

1. My God, my God, "Let us gaze with holy wonder, and mark the flashes of light amid the awful darkness of that midday-midnight. First, our Lord's faith beams forth and deserves our reverent imitation; he keeps his hold upon his God with both hands and cries twice, "My God, my God!"...Oh that we could imitate this cleaving to an afflicting God!"

Why Hast thou forsaken me? - "Why?" what is the great cause of such a strange fact as for God to leave this own Son at such a time and in such a plight? There was no cause in him, why then was he deserted? "Hast:" it is done, and the Saviour is feeling its dread effect as he asks the question; it is surely true, but how mysterious! "Thou:" I can understand why traitorous Judas and timid Peter should be gone, but thou, my God, my faithful friend, how canst thou leave me? This is worst of all, yea, worse than all put together. Hell itself has for its fiercest flame the separation of the soul from God. "Forsaken:" if thou hadst chastened I might bear it, for thy face would shine; but to forsake me utterly, ah! why is this? "Me:" thine innocent, obedient, suffering Son, why leavest thou me to perish? A sight of self seen by penitence, and of Jesus on the cross seen by faith will best expound this question. Jesus is
forsaken because our sins had separated between us and our God..

Why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring? "The Man of Sorrows had prayed until his speech failed him, and he could only utter moanings and groanings as men do in severe sicknesses, like the roarings of a wounded animal. To what extremity of grief was our Master driven? What strong crying and tears were those which made him too hoarse for speech! What must have been his anguish to find his own beloved and trusted Father standing afar off, and neither granting help nor apparently hearing prayer! Yet there was reason for all this which those who rest in Jesus as their Substitute well know."

(Yes, Lord Jesus, You know exactly how I feel because You've experienced it, too, and even MORE...DESERTION. Why do I cry and pray and yet at times there are no real answers for this environmental illness? Why do I cry and pray and yet I just get worse and worse? Why are You not answering my prayers? Why have You allowed me to become so chemically sensitive in the last 9 months? Lord, sometimes I do feel that You have FORSAKEN me. But somehow this morning You've given me a peace knowing that You have sovereignly allowed all of this.You have not forsaken me forever just as You have not forsaken forever Your dear Son. There is a REASON for my suffering.Someday I'll understand. Amen.)

Psalm 22:2-5


Continuing in Psalm 22 - Thoughts by Spurgeon - My thoughts in parentheses - My emphasis italicized in bold

2 O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest not, and in the night season, and am not silent. - "...it is observable that he still held fast his believing hold on God, and cried still "My God." On the other hand his faith did not render him less importunate, for amid the hurry and horror of that dismal day he ceased not his cry, even as in Gethsemane he had agonized all through the gloomy night. Our Lord continued to pray even though no comfortable answer came, and in this he set us an example of obedience to his own words, "men ought always to pray, and not to faint." No daylight is too glaring and no midnight too dark to pray in; and no delay or apparent denial, however grievous, should tempt us to forbear from importunate
pleading."

(Yes, Lord, thank-You for Spurgeon's words here. May I never give up praying. You hear, and You hold my hand even though I may not always sense it. Hallelujah!)

3 But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel, - "However ill things may look, there is no ill in thee, O God!...There is no unrighteousness with the God of Jacob, he deserves no censure; let him do what he will, he is to be praised, and to reign enthroned amid the songs of his chosen people. If prayer be unanswered it is not because God is unfaithful, but for some other good and weighty reason. If we cannot perceive any ground for the
delay, we must leave the riddle unsolved, but we must not fly in God's face in order in invent an answer."

4 Our fathers trusted in thee: they trusted, and thou didst deliver them. - "Our Lord here pleads the past dealings of God with his people as a reason why he should not be left alone; here again he is an example to us in the skillful use of the weapon of all prayer."

5 They cried unto thee, and were delivered: they trusted in thee, and were not confounded. - "As if he had said, 'How is it that I am now without succour in my overwhelming griefs, while all others have been helped?' We may remind the Lord of his former lovingkindnesses
to his people, and beseech him to be still the same...Observe, that ancient saints cried and trusted, and that in trouble we must do the same; and the invariable result was that they were not ashamed of their hope, for deliverance came in due time; this same happy portion shall be ours. The prayer of faith can do the deed when nothing else can. Let us wonder when we see Jesus using the same pleas as ourselves, and immersed in griefs far deeper than our own."

(Yes, Lord, You helped godly men in the past. You even brought the children of Israel "forth also with silver and gold: and there was not one feeble person among their tribes,"(Ps.105:37)...And You gave them food and water. You didn't even let their clothes wear out. You can do this for me, too! Hallelujah!)

Psalm 22:6-8


Continuing in Psalm 22 - Thoughts by Spurgeon - My thoughts in parentheses -My emphasis italicized in bold

6 But I am a worm, and no man. - "What a contrast between "I AM" and "I am a worm"! Yet such a double nature was found in the person of our Lord Jesus when bleeding upon the tree. He felt himself to be comparable to a helpless, powerless, down-trodden worm, passive while
crushed, and unnoticed and despised by those who trod upon him...This was a true likeness of himself when his body and soul had become a mass of misery ----the very essence of agony---in the dying pangs of crucifixion. Man by nature is but a worm; but our Lord puts himself even beneath man, on account of the scorn that was heaped upon him and the weakness which he felt, and therefore he adds, "and no man."...he was outlawed from the society of earth, and shut out from the smile of heaven. How utterly did the Saviour empty himself of all glory, and become of no reputation for our sakes! A reproach of men, and despised of the people. - "Sin is worthy of all reproach and contempt, and for this reason Jesus, the Sinbearer, was given up to be thus unworthily and shamefully entreated."

(The underlined words are sometimes how I feel, too, Lord.)

7 All they that see me laugh me to scorn. - "Mockery has for its distinctive description "cruel mockings;" those endured by our Lord were of the most cruel kind...Priests and people, Jews and Gentiles, soldiers and civilians, all united in the general scoff, and that at the time when he was prostrate in weakness and ready to die. Which shall we wonder at the most, the cruelty of man or the love of the bleeding Saviour? How can we ever complain of ridicule after this?

They shoot out the lip, they shake the head, - "These were gestures of contempt...men made faces at him before whom angels vail their faces and adore."

(Yes, may I remember what YOU have gone through whenever people are offended by my sensitivities or when they say it is all in my head.)

8 Saying, He trusted on the Lord that he would deliver him: let him deliver him, seeing he delighted in him. - "Here the taunt is cruelly aimed the sufferer's faith in God, which is the tenderest point in a good man's soul, the very apple of his eye. They must have learned
the diabolical art from Satan himself..this special piece of mockery is probably mentioned in this psalm because it is the most bitter of the whole...

(Just as my faith is questioned when modern day Job's comforters tell me "If you just had enough FAITH, you would be healed.)

When we are tormented in the same manner, let us remember him who endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, and we shall be comforted. On reading these verses one is ready, with Trapp, to ask, "Is this a prophecy or a history? " For the description is so
accurate...Jehovah had aforetime delivered those who rolled their burdens upon him: why was this man deserted? Oh that they had understood the answer! Note further, that their ironical jest, "seeing he delighted in him," was true. The Lord did delight in his dear Son, and when he was found in fashion as a man, and became obedient unto death, he still was well pleased with him. Strange mixture! Jehovah delights in him, and yet bruises him; is well pleased, and yet slays him."

(Strange, too, that I am Your child, and You love me so much and yet You let me experience all this sickness and misunderstanding. Yet I know there is REASON and PURPOSE!) Amen!

Psalm 22:9-11


Continuing in Psalm 22 - Thoughts by Spurgeon - My thoughts in parentheses -Written Spring 1999

9 But thou art he that took me out of the womb. - "Kindly providence attends with the surgery of tenderness at every human birth; but the Son of Man, who was marvelously begotten of the Holy Ghost, was in an especial manner watched over by the Lord when brought forth by Mary. The destitute state of Joseph and Mary, far away from friends and
home, led them to see the cherishing hand of God in the safe delivery of the mother, and the happy birth of the child; that Child now fighting the great battle of his life, uses the mercy of his nativity as an argument with God. Faith finds weapons everywhere...."

(Yes, many times I have felt like I was dying, but You were KEEPING me!)

Thou didst make me hope when I was upon my mother's breasts. - "Early piety gives peculiar comfort in our after trials, for surely he who loved us when we were children is too faithful to cast us off in our riper years..Some give the text the sense of "gave me cause to trust, by keeping me safely," and assuredly there was a special providence which preserved our Lord's infant days from the fury of Herod, the dangers of traveling, and the ills of poverty."

10 I was cast upon thee from the womb. - "Into the Almighty arms he was first received, as into those of a loving parent. This is a sweet thought. God begins his care over us from the earliest hour. We are dandled upon the knee of mercy, and cherished in the lap of goodness; our cradle is canopied by divine love, and our first totterings are guided by his care.

Thou art my God from my mother's belly. - "Our birth was our weakest and most perilous period of existence; if we were then secured by Omnipotent tenderness, surely we have no cause to suspect that divine goodness will fail us now. He who was our God when we left our
mother, will be with us till we return to mother earth, and will keep us from perishing in the belly of hell."

11 Be not far from me; - "His great woe was that God had forsaken him, his great prayer is that he would be near him. A lively sense of the divine presence is a mighty stay to the heart in times of distress.

For trouble is near; for there is none to help. - "Our Substitute had trouble in his inmost heart, for he said, "the waters have come in, even unto my soul;"...all his disciples had forsaken him, and lover and friend were put far from him. There is an awfulness about
absolute friendlessness which is crushing to the human mind, for man was not made to be alone, and is like a dismembered limb when he has to endure heart-loneliness."

(There is none to help, Lord...only You. YOU understand my LONELINESS-loneliness not only because others don't seem to understand the "torment" I'm going through, but ALSO loneliness because most do not understand my deep longing for spiritual conversation. Jan
Markell's poem from her book, Waiting For A Miracle, p 50, says it well.)

Nobody Else Will Listen, Lord

I had a monumental need today, Lord.
I needed someone to talk to.
I needed a conversation that went beyond
my neighbor's rose bushes, or
last night's election results.
Such a paradox it seems,
to be surrounded by people,
to have their voices vibrating through me,
to be numb from shaking hands,
to hurt from smiling...
and yet to feel alone.
Alone because conversations
center on things of insignificance for eternity.
Because conversations focus on
the high cost of living
and not on the Giver of life.
Yes, alone in a crowd,
But never alone, Lord,
for You listen
even if I ramble and make little sense,
or if I can't quite explain myself,
or if I am redundant
and never get to the point.
Thank You, Father,
for being my Companion,
Confidant,
and Counselor,
And for listening, when all the world
Is caught up with the fun and games of life,
Too busy with yesterday's sports results
To listen to a needy soul.

Amen.

-Jan Markell
(Used with permisson)

Psalm 22:12-14


Continuing in Psalm 22 - Thoughts by Spurgeon on the suffering of our Saviour - My thoughts in parentheses - Written Spring 1999

12 Many bulls have compassed me:; strong bulls of Bashan have beset me round. "The priests, elders, scribes, Pharisees, rulers, and captains bellowed round the cross like wild cattle...full of strength and fury; they stamped and foamed around the innocent One, and longed to gore him to death with their cruelties. Conceive of the Lord Jesus as a helpless, unarmed, naked man, cast into the midst of a herd of infuriated wild bulls. They were brutal as bulls, many, and strong, and the Rejected One was all alone, and bound naked to the
tree."

( Many "bulls" have compassed me about, too...in a way. I have suffered at the hands of many physicians, etc.)

13 They gaped upon me with their mouths, as a ravening and a roaring lion. - "Like hungry cannibals they opened their blasphemous mouths as if they were about to swallow the man whom they abhorred. They could not vomit forth their anger fast enough through the ordinary aperture of their mouths, and therefore set the doors of their lips wide open like those who gape. Like roaring lions they howled out their fury, and longed to tear the Saviour in pieces, as wild beasts raven over their prey. Our Lord's faith must have passed through a
most severe conflict while he found himself abandoned to the tender mercies of the wicked, but he came off victorious by prayer..."

(Yes, this is how I felt when I saw this new doctor. She gaped upon me with her mouth when I said, "I don't know which doctor to trust anymore. How do I know who is telling me the truth?" She says I was overdosing on progesterone and that this is what has made me so
chemically sensitive, etc.)

14 I am poured out like water. - "Turning from his enemies, our Lord describes his own personal condition in language which should bring the tears into every loving eye. "I am poured out like water." He was utterly spent, like water poured upon the earth; his heart failed him, and had no more firmness in it than running water, and his whole being was made a sacrifice, like a libation poured out before the Lord. He had long been a fountain of tears; in Gethsemane his heart welled over in sweat, and on the cross he gushed forth with blood; he poured out his strength and spirit, so that he was reduced to the most feeble and exhausted state.

All my bones are out of joint: - "Is it not most probably that the fastenings of the hands and feet, and the jar occasioned by fixing the cross in the earth, may have dislocated the bones of the Crucified One? If this is not intended, we must refer the expression to that extreme weakness which would occasion relaxation of the muscles and a general sense of parting asunder throughout the whole system.

My heart is like wax; it is melted in the midst of my bowels. - "Excessive debility and intense pain made his inmost life to feel like wax melted in the heat... The fire of Almighty wrath would have consumed our souls for ever in hell; it was no light work to bear as a substitute the heat of an anger so justly terrible."

(It is true...Jesus, You know my pain and more....oh so much more...)

Psalm 22:15-21


More Thoughts by Spurgeon on Psalm 22

Jesus really does understand our sufferings and pain!

15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd. - "Jesus likens himself to a broken piece of earthenware, or en earthen pot, baked in the fire till the last particle of moisture is driven out of the clay. No doubt a high degree of feverish burning afflicted the body of our Lord. All his strength was dried up in the tremendous flames of avenging justice..."

My tongue cleaveth to my jaws; -"thirst and fever fastened his tongue to his jaws. Dryness and horrible clamminess tormented his mouth, so that he could scarcely speak."

Thou hast brought me into the dust of death; - "so tormented in every single part as to feel dissolved into separate atoms, and each atom full of misery; the full price of our redemption was paid, and no part of the Surety's body or soul escaped its share of agony."

16 For dogs have compassed me. - "Hunters frequently surround their game with a circle, and gradually encompass them with an ever- narrowing ring of dogs and men. Such a picture is before us. In the centre stands, not a panting stag, but a bleeding, fainting man, and around him are the enraged and unpitying wretches who have hounded him to his doom.

The assembly of the wicked have inclosed me: - "...the Jewish people were unchurched, and that which called itself an assembly of the righteous is justly for its sins marked upon the forehead as an assembly of the wicked. This is not the only occasion when professed churches of God have become synagogues of Satan, and have persecuted the Holy One and the Just."

They pierced my hands and my feet. - "This can by no means refer to David, or to any one but Jesus of Nazareth, the once crucified but now exalted Son of God. Pause, dear reader, and view the wounds of thy Redeemer."

17 I may tell all my bones. - "The posture of the body on the cross, Bishop Horne thinks, would so distend the flesh and skin as to make the bones visible, so that they might be numbered. The zeal of his Father's house had eaten him up;...Oh that we cared less for the
body's enjoyment and ease and more for our Father's business! It were better to count the bones of an emaciated body than to bring leanness into our souls.

They look and stare upon me. "Unholy eyes gazed insultingly upon the Saviours's nakedness, and shocked the sacred delicacy of his holy soul...Let us blush for human nature, and mourn in sympathy with our Redeemer's shame. The first Adam made us all naked, and therefore
the second Adam became naked that he might clothe our naked souls.

18 They part my garments among them, and cast lots upon my vesture. - "This incident shows how clearly David in vision saw the day of Christ, and how surely the Man of Nazareth is he of whom the prophets spake:..He who gave his blood to cleanse us gave his garments to
clothe us...It may be noted that the habit of gambling is of all others the most hardening, for men could practice it even at the cross-foot while bespsrinkled with the blood of the Crucified. No Christian will endure the rattle of the dice when he thinks of this."

19 But be thou not far from me, O Lord. -"He wants nothing but his God, even in his lowest state."

O my strength, haste thee to help me. - "Hard cases need timely aid: when necessity justifies it we may be urgent with God as to time, and cry, "make haste;" but we must not do this out of willfulness. Mark how in the last degree of personal weakness he calls the Lord "my
strength;" after this fashion the believer can sing, "when I am weak, then am I strong."

20 Deliver my soul from the sword. - "By the sword is probably meant entire destruction, which as a man he dreaded; or perhaps he sought deliverance from the enemies around him, who were like a sharp and deadly sword to him."

My darling from the power of the dog. -"Meaning his soul, his life, which is most dear to every man...Would that all men made their souls their darling, but many treat them as if they were not worth so much as the mire of the streets. The dog may mean Satan..If Jesus cried
for help against the dog of hell, much more may we...beware of the dog, for his power is great, and only God can deliver us from him. When he fawns upon us, we must not put ourselves in his power; and when he howls at us, we may remember that God holds him with a chain."

21 Save me from the lion's mouth: for thou hast heard me from the horns of the unicorns. - "Having experienced deliverance in the past from great enemies, who were strong as the unicorns, the Redeemer utters his last cry for rescue from death, which is fierce and mighty
as the lion. This prayer was heard, and the gloom of the cross departed. Thus faith, though sorely beaten, and even cast beneath the feet of her enemy, ultimately wins the victory. It was so in our Head, it shall be so in all the members. We have overcome the unicorn, we shall conquer the lion, and from both lion and unicorn we shall take the crown."

"...from a horrible tempest all is changed into calm. The darkness of Calvary at length passed away from the face of nature, and from the soul of the Redeemer, and beholding the light of his triumph and its future results the Saviour smiled. We have followed him through the gloom, let us attend him in the returning light. It will be well still to regard the words as a part of our Lord's soliloquy upon the cross, uttered in his mind during the last few moments before his death."

(Hallelujah! I shall WIN and overcome this sickness SOMEDAY, Lord, even if it isn't till death...BECAUSE You have suffered and died for me! As I stop and meditate on Your horrible death, I am comforted to know that You understand and cry with me through MY SUFFERINGS. And I remember Your word to me - "Beloved think it not strange concerning
the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are PARTAKERS OF CHRIST'S SUFFERINGS; that when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy." (I Pet. 4:13) Yes, You are the Master, and I am Your disciple. It is fitting that I should follow in Your sufferings.)

Psalm 22:22-26


Continuing in Psalm 22 - Thoughts by Spurgeon -My thoughts in parentheses - My emphasis italicized

22 I will declare thy name unto my brethren. - "The delights of Jesus are always with his church...Jesus anticipates happiness in having communication with his people; he purposes to be their teacher and minister...The name, i.e., the character and conduct of God are by
Jesus Christ's gospel proclaimed to all the holy brotherhood; they behold the fullness of the Godhead dwelling bodily in him...We may learn from this resolution of our Lord, that one of the most excellent methods of showing our thankfulness for deliverances is to tell to our brethren what the Lord has done for us. We mention our sorrows readily enough; why are we so slow in declaring our deliverances?

In the midst of the congregation will I praise thee. - "In the great universal church Jesus is the One authoritative teacher, and all others, so far as they are worthy to be called teachers, are nothing but echoes of his voice. Jesus, in this second sentence, reveals his object in declaring the divine name, it is that God may be praised; the church continually magnifies Jehovah for manifesting himself in the person of Jesus, and Jesus himself leads the song...Delightful are the seasons when Jesus communes with our hearts concerning divine
truth; joyful praise is the sure result."

23 Ye that fear the Lord praise him. - ""He exhorts the faithful to unite with him in thanksgiving. The description of "fearing the Lord" is very frequent and very instructive; it is the beginning of wisdom, and is an essential sign of grace...Humble awe of God is so necessary a preparation for praising him that none are fit to sing to his honour but such as reverence his word."

All ye the seed of Jacob glorify him; - "The saint should unite in the song; no tongue maybe silent, no heart may be cold. Christ calls us to glorify God, and can we refuse?"

And fear him, all ye the seed of Israel. - "The spiritual Israel all do this, and we hope the day will come when Israel after the flesh will be brought to the same mind. The more we praise God the more reverently shall we fear him, and the deeper our reverence the sweeter our songs. So much does Jesus value praise that we have it here under his dying hand and seal that all the saints must glorify the Lord."

24 For he hath not despised nor abhorred the affliction of the afflicted. - "Never was man so afflicted as our Saviour in body and soul from friends and foes, by heaven and hell, in life and death; he was the foremost in the ranks of the afflicted, but all those afflictions were sent in love, and not because his Father despised and abhorred him"

(This verse 24 means that You CARE about my pain - because You've been there! And God, You have sent my afflictions in LOVE.)

Neither hath he hid his face from him. - "That is to say, the hiding was but temporary, and was soon removed; it was not final and eternal."

(TEMPORARY...Yes, Lord, my affliction is only TEMPORARY!)

But when he cried unto him, he heard. "Every child of God should seek refreshment for his faith in this testimony of the Man of Sorrows. What Jesus here witnesses is as true to-day as when it was first written. It shall never be said that any man's affliction or poverty prevented his being an accepted suppliant at Jehovah's throne of grace."

(Yes, You hear my prayers, too, although sometimes there seems to be SILENCE.)

25 My praise shall be of thee in the great congregation. - "The one subject of our Master's song is the Lord alone...The word in the original is "from thee," ---true praise is of celestial origin."

I will pay my vows before them that fear him. - "Jesus dedicates himself anew to the carrying out of the divine purpose in fulfillment of this vows made in anguish...Messiah vowed to build up a spiritual temple for the Lord, and he will surely keep his word."

26 The meek shall eat and be satisfied. - "Mark how the dying Lover of our souls solaces himself with the result of this death. The spiritually poor find a feast in Jesus, they feed upon him to the satisfaction of their hearts...Note the characters who partake of the benefit of his passion; "the meek, the humble and lowly. Lord, make us so. Note also the certainty that gospel provisions shall not be wasted, "they shall eat;" and the sure result of such eating, "and be satisfied."

They shall praise the Lord that seek him. -"...their thanksgiving days must and shall come.

Your heart shall live for ever. - "Your spirits shall not fail through trial, you shall not die of grief, immortal joys shall be your portion. Thus Jesus speaks even from the cross to the troubled seeker. If his dying words are so assuring, what consolation may we not find in the truth that he ever liveth to make intercession for us! They who eat at Jesus' table receive the fulfillment of the promise, "Whosoever eateth of this bread shall live for ever."

("God is most glorified in us when we are most SATISFIED in Him! Dr. John Piper says. The promise here is that the meek SHALL be SATISFIED!

And yes, I SHALL praise the Lord if I seek Him. This means HEALING is on the way! Some day...some DAY! Hallelujah!)